no regrets going for cf today. during worship, i had time to pray to God and i prayed abt commiting my future to Him and prayed that He could reveal his calling to me soon so i'd know which direction im heading for and stuff.

background info: ive actually wanted to be a vet since abt 2 years back? or was it one and a half. but yeah around there. just that i wasnt sure if that's what God wanted for me. cause it's like my own passion. So ive been praying that God will reveal to me what His calling is for me soon cause like uni's coming up and all.

so back to the story. and after that was sermon and Mr Wee (i dunno how old he is but he looks quite old. HAHA. no offense) was sharing abt how he working in nokia for TWELVE years and one day on an airplane travelling for work purposes, he felt God impress upon his heart "my son, my son, you're always going around travelling. Where do i come into the picture?" (smth along those lines) and then he knew that God wanted him to serve God full-time and so he did. He quit his ever-so-steady job and went to study at Trinity Theological College and is in his final year. how cool is he plzzzz.

but what's cooler is what i got from it. Some people wait till their old, or rather middle-age, when their job's so steady to find out what God's calling is for them. and i realised that all along ive been trying to fit God's plan into my own schedule and forgot all about HIS TIMING.

so this has taught me to be patient abt finding out what my calling is. i believe God will reveal it to me in HIS time even if it means 30 years later. (:

It's also so amazing how God answers prayer just like that sometimes. when you hear God, and when you know that this is what God is telling you, it's just....satisfying. i dont know how to explain it but i <3 being in touch with God and i dont want to (and hope i wont) trade it for anything(:

One impt lesson i've learnt today -- sometimes we may not realise it but our pride is really getting in the way of MANY things. just take some time to think about it. If you really humble yourself and put your pride away, how different would things be? How differently would you handle things?

I know it would make a lot of things better and clearer for me. Lets try and remember this through the week.

James 4:10 (New International Version)
10Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

i quote this monday again: "I'm just gonna hope for a better week and my commitment will at least last through the week." It's thursday and it's been a happy week. give thanksss.

THIS CLIP IS MADE OF LOVE X (INFINITY)^INFINITY.
POWERFUL SONG, IMPACTFUL VIDEO
** please prepare a box of tissue before watching the video

How can i stand here with You and not be moved by You?



As you watch this video,
notice how God is in the gentle whisper calling out, crying for us when we do things to hurt ourselves and break His heart.

How satan manipulate us by tempting us with worldly pleasures and in the end we're the ones holding a gun to our own heads, killing ourselves with sin. That's what satan does,

but when we finally realise that God's always been there calling you back to Him with open arms, and we try to run back to Him.

It's DEFINITELY not an easy journey but God is always helping us as long as we keep seeking Him, He has overcome the world.

When we go to Him and repent, God cleanses us of our sins, making us right with Him again(the girl's dressed in black and 'God' places his white coat over her. SO COOL RIGHT? right.)

and we're back in God's loving embrace. Bliss. i love this video ttm! It really summarizes what God's love is all about.

Everything - Lifehouse

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel You
I need to hear You

You are the light
That's leading me
To The Place
Where I find peace again

You are the strength
That keeps me walking
You are the hope
That keeps me trusting

You are the life
To my soul
You are my purpose
You are everything

And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this

You calm the storms
You give me rest
You hold me in Your hands
You won't let me fall

You still my heart
And You take my breath away
Would You take me in
Would You take me deeper now

And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this
And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this

'cause You're all I want
You are all I need
You are Everything
Everything
You are all I want
You are all I need
You are Everything
Everything

And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this

Would You tell me how could it be any better than this

today's qt was completely refreshing (: it's kinda long but read it! all of it!

Colossians 1:1-14 (New Living Translation)

Greetings from Paul
1 This letter is from Paul, chosen by the will of God to be an apostle of Christ Jesus, and from our brother Timothy.
2 We are writing to God’s holy people in the city of Colosse, who are faithful brothers and sisters in Christ.
May God our Father give you grace and peace.

Paul’s Thanksgiving and Prayer
3 We always pray for you, and we give thanks to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. 4 For we have heard of your faith in Christ Jesus and your love for all of God’s people, 5 which come from your confident hope of what God has reserved for you in heaven. You have had this expectation ever since you first heard the truth of the Good News.
6 This same Good News that came to you is going out all over the world. It is bearing fruit everywhere by changing lives, just as it changed your lives from the day you first heard and understood the truth about God’s wonderful grace.
7 You learned about the Good News from Epaphras, our beloved co-worker. He is Christ’s faithful servant, and he is helping us on your behalf. 8 He has told us about the love for others that the Holy Spirit has given you.
9 So we have not stopped praying for you since we first heard about you. We ask God to give you complete knowledge of his will and to give you spiritual wisdom and understanding. 10 Then the way you live will always honor and please the Lord, and your lives will produce every kind of good fruit. All the while, you will grow as you learn to know God better and better.
11 We also pray that you will be strengthened with all his glorious power so you will have all the endurance and patience you need. May you be filled with joy, 12 always thanking the Father. He has enabled you to share in the inheritance that belongs to his people, who live in the light. 13 For he has rescued us from the kingdom of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of his dear Son, 14 who purchased our freedom and forgave our sins.

This passage really really really encouraged me to keep going further and deeper in my faith. The verses in bold really left an impression on me today. knowing that God's word changes lives, changes the world v6(it's soooo p-o-w-e-r-f-u-l), knowing that God rescued me, the most undeserving one,from the pits of darkness to the heavens v13(<3 love at its best!), really draws me to Him. and v11 really encourages me to seek God as i draw strength from Him and trust Him when i always give thanks to Him in all circumstances.

i wanna read it again tmr, maybe i'll gain some new insight from it. and it'll remind me of my focus every day and keep me in awe of God who impacts the world. FAVOURITE PASSAGE FOREVER (FPF)! LOVELOVELOVE

the whole chunk below is from http://www.christnotes.org/ww.php?d=2009-07-27 It addresses problems we find ourselves facing quite often. We may chuck it aside thinking that it's nothing that serious but anything that pulls you away from God IS SERIOUS. so read k? (can read the chunk below or open the link) and hopefully it'll convict you some way or another, IN GOD'S TIME (:

Does the fear of God or the fear of man rule your life?
Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe (Proverbs 29:25).

A person who is ruled by the fear of man is one whose decisions are dictated by what other people think. Such a person is a people-pleaser. One ruled by the fear of man will repeatedly base decisions on questions like "How does this make me look?", "Do you think they'll like it?", or "What if they don't approve?". It is certainly not wrong to ask for input from other people (indeed, it's wise to seek feedback from others); however, it is wrong—not just wrong, but foolish—for your decisions to be guided more by feedback from others than by feedback from God.

To fear God means to take him at his word, knowing that he will follow through on all his promises. A person who fears the Lord is one whose decisions are guided by God.
There are more than a dozen verses in the Bible that make very clear the advantage of being one whose life is guided by the fear of the Lord. Blessed is the man who fears the Lord (Psalm 112:1). Humility and the fear of the Lord bring wealth and honor and life (Proverbs 22:4). The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom (Psalm 111:10). He who fears the Lord has a secure fortress, and for his children it will be a refuge. The fear of the Lord is a fountain of life (Proverbs 14:26-27).

It's no wonder Proverbs 31:30 gives us this nugget of wisdom: Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
If you want the fear of God to guide your life, then base your actions on questions like "What does God think about this?", "Would God approve of this?", or "Would I do this if Jesus were right here watching me?".

If you want your life to be blessed, let it be ruled by the fear of God.
If you're too busy to spend time with God, then you're simply too busy.
In the world we live in today, it is very easy to get so incredibly caught up in all of the demands that culture places on us that we don't have any time to spend with God.

However, the fact that so many things compete for every person's time isn't new to the world. Indeed, in Luke 10:38-42, we see the story of how two people responded to this same problem in two very different ways: As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. ...

We see that after Jesus entered the home, He evidently started teaching, and Mary, Martha's sister, stopped what she was doing and listened to Jesus. It's important to realize that Mary didn't know Jesus was coming, and so it certainly wasn't her plan to stop what she was doing and sit at His feet, listening to Him. However, Mary considered hearing from God so important that she altered her schedule to spend time with God.

... But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!" Here, we see that Martha responded very differently than her sister: she became really busy and caught up in what she was doing -- probably preparing a meal, cleaning the house, or something similar.

When Martha complained to Jesus about how Mary was using her time, Jesus responded: "Martha, Martha, ... you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."
One sister was willing to drop everything in order to hear from God; the other was too busy with everyday life in order to spend time with God. Jesus makes it clear that the way Mary chose to use her time was better.

In your life, you need to be willing to use your time like Mary did. Don't let little things steal your time away from what's really important in life. You must realize that there is no lasting value to the "urgent" things many people often allow to interfere with what's truly important. It would not have mattered if Martha hadn't cleaned the house that day.

You need to be willing to let your schedule be altered if knowing God better requires it. Don't be like Martha and get so caught up in life's distractions that you miss Jesus.

i quote last monday "i hope this hunger for God wont just be a monday thing but an everyday thing. " didnt happen. died off on friday. i hate being dependent on people

I'm just gonna hope for a better week and my commitment will at least last through the week.
For various reasons, my weekend was horrible. had a couple of disappointments, confusion and fear. and although i knew that i should turn to God, i didnt. i had the mindset that God couldnt help me and even if i prayed about it, things would still be the same. i talked to Jo about it on sunday and she urged me to pray about it. i am thankful that she did. (:

i feel more at peace now and found my identity in Christ. it still feels quite head knowledge-y but i hope i'll really believe it with all my heart as i meditate more on it and spend more time with God.

Psalm 146:3-5 (New Living Translation)
3 Don’t put your confidence in powerful people; there is no help for you there. 4 When they breathe their last, they return to the earth, and all their plans die with them. 5 But joyful are those who have the God of Israel as their helper, whose hope is in the Lord their God.

Somehow, people will always fail you and not meet up to your expectations one way or another but God will never fail you. He never sleeps, He never slumbers.

This blog feels almost like my own.




listening compre was horrible. i didnt expect to be so uncertain of my answers. i was really down at first but on my way home i remembered one of my QTs to always be joyful and give thanks no matter what. instead of being upset about how badly im gonna do, i took this opportunity to really put in trust in God. My God provides and loves me a lot a lot a lot a lot so He wouldnt bring harm upon me and right now, i really feel at peace and hopeful towards what God's gonna do in my life (:

God is good, all the time and
all the time, God is good. <3>The Lord doesn’t see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”

This verse really gave meaning and purpose in serving and was really useful in preparing myself for worship this sun.. It brought the focus back from how well im playing to simply the act of worshipping and submitting. Submitting my whole self to God that he may use me the way He wants to. To be brutally honest, every month when im up on that stage i'll always be thinking what others may think of me at the back of my mind and this pulls me away from worshipping Him. But the Lord looks at the heart and not how well i play. even if i played like every piece of crap in the world, God will still be pleased if i have truly worshipped Him and served Him with my humble heart.

This applies to everything else as well, if something you've intended to do for God's glory didnt go well, remember that the Lord doesnt care about how successful it was. All that matters to Him are your motives. (:

Aim this week: submit and worship

2 Corinthians 12:10 (New Living Translation)
"That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong. "
This verse makes sooo much sense.
When i first read it and reflected upon it, i was like afghebc -->abcdefg (ahaha! okay not funny) but it really felt like i learnt something new or just got reminded of something ive long forgotten.

It's really through our weakness, taking insults, going through hardships and persecutions, bascially HUMILITY, will we then seek God, turn to God, draw strength from Him and trust Him. and because we have God, we are strong! With God nothing is impossible and we can do all things in Christ who strenthens us (: are you overflowing with sense just as i am?

Humility. I hope this head knowledge goes to the heart and then to the hands.



So much for posting every day. The hunger and passion died out within a few days. disappointing. but i feel refueled again today.

before qt today, i felt really inadequate. like God loved those who were spiritually stronger more than he loves me. that's really warped but i believed it. See things the devil does to lead us away from God? that's why it's sooooo impt to stay rooted in Him. He can just pull us away without us even noticing. it's scary. i cant imagine my life without God really. i'll just fall and crumble in my own problems and insecurities.

As i thought more about it (by writing as i usually do), there's nothing i can do or could have done to make God love me more or less. I'll always be His precious and it's my heart He's looking at. If i have a desire and hunger for Him, He's pleased. and this love that He has shown me just makes me wanna do more things to make Him happy(:

QT felt really dry at first so i thought i really need something to light the spark. so i took dancia's advice and read my past written prayers (journal) and i really did work. on 24/2/09 i wrote "...you suffered excruciating pain, hardships and emotional stress...and Lord im sorry for the way i show my gratitude. it's really disappointing"

it really made me reflect on how ive been showing my gratitude for Jesus's salvation. ive been procrastinating, doing whatver i liked and totally neglecting God and guess what Jesus died so that i can be reconciled with God! I can just hear Jesus's heart breaking into pieces already.

i hope this hunger for God wont just be a monday thing but an everyday thing.
I open my heart
I want to be closer
closer to You

Today's devo was on how we shouldnt take credit for whatever we possess cause without God, we wouldnt even have it. Get what i mean? like if we earn some cash by working and stuff, we shouldnt forget that it was God who gave us the ability to earn it. He's the mastermind behind EVERYTHING.

Luke 12:15 (New Living Translation)
15 Then he said, “Beware! Guard against every kind of greed. Life is not measured by how much you own.”

Matthew 6:19-21 (New Living Translation)
19 “Don’t store up treasures here on earth, where moths eat them and rust destroys them, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 Store your treasures in heaven, where moths and rust cannot destroy, and thieves do not break in and steal. 21 Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be.

God doesnt want us to spend/keep all our wealth and possesions on/to ourselves, He wants us to use them to meet the needs of others. ALL FOR GOD'S KINGDOM (:

Matthew25:40 (New Living Translation)
40"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

Today, a thought just hit me while i was in the toilet. I realised that i havent been the least bit obedient to God. I mean yes, i do have a desire to know him more and have a deeper relationship with Him but all that ive learnt during my daily devotions just slip out of my mind the next day, tucked away somewhere in my brain, or even disappear completely and in goes something new. it seems almost like im in a different world when i do my qt and when im doing my usual work and all. but NO, that's not supposed to be the case. I really hope i can do something abt it.

thinking more abt it, i think its really abt stepping out of my own comfort zone and a test of whether im willing to go an extra mile for God. It's hard. very. But how's your faith going to grow if it's not being tested. See how God works here? awesome isnt it. GOD SPEAKS.

1 John 3:18-24 (New Living Translation)

18 Dear children, let’s not merely say that we love each other; let us show the truth by our actions. 19 Our actions will show that we belong to the truth, so we will be confident when we stand before God. 20 Even if we feel guilty, God is greater than our feelings, and he knows everything.

21 Dear friends, if we don’t feel guilty, we can come to God with bold confidence. 22 And we will receive from him whatever we ask because we obey him and do the things that please him.

23 And this is his commandment: We must believe in the name of his Son, Jesus Christ, and love one another, just as he commanded us. 24 Those who obey God’s commandments remain in fellowship with him, and he with them. And we know he lives in us because the Spirit he gave us lives in us.

Belief and love flourish together, because when we believe in Jesus, we have the power and the motivation to love like He does. "One another" even includes those that are hard to love. God loves us even though we're not always easy to love, so we should love those who arent easy to love either. Lets love because we believe in Jesus(:

fishy

Matthew 25:31-46 (New International Version)

The Sheep and the Goats
31"When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his throne in heavenly glory. 32All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.
34"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

37"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'

40"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

41"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'

44"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'

45"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'

46"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."

When we have an intimate relationship with God, selfless deeds will pour out from us to the needy and God will work through us as we actively seek what He wants us to do. Doing good deeds dont secure a relationship we have with God but it's a result of having a relationship with Him.

God has saved us, all of us. He lifted us up from the miry clay, from sinking sand and set our feet on solid ground. Our way of thanking Him is pour out His love to the broken people around us and just have compassion and love for His people.

fishy

It has really been a while since ive posted and I admit my relationship with God during that period wasnt really at it's best.
very inconsistent QT and hardly even thinking abt God each day. and this really affected the way i handled things. everything became so... self-centred and self-motivated.

Whenever i saw people posting long paragraphs about God on their blogs and stuff i would judge them and feel very uncomfortable. i would think "why're they 'showing off' the strength of their faith?"
but was it really that? or was i just jealous of the relationship they have with God? Looking back, i think it was the latter.

People who read these posts, they started to have a renewed passion and hunger for God. I mean this is so so SO awesome beyond awesome and how God use them is just sooo beautiful. How could i even be jealous? Before i knew it, i caught the bug as well. i began to hunger to God, for the relationship we once had. When we were close, when i depended on Him and rested in His embrace.

Then it came to me that i shouldnt limit God's power and the way He works to only what ive witnessed and experienced. God can work in me and i can experience Him through sooo maaannyyy different ways. With this, i felt at peace. At peace that God will always be here for me no matter how far i drift away from Him.

GOD IS LOOVVEEE <3

So im gonna post daily, or at least try to what ive learnt from QT. never know when it may speak to someone.

Today's devo was on healing and restoration. sometimes we rather live in our hurt because we are used to it.
but God wants to restore us as it says in Psalm 147:3'He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds'
sometimes it requires us to give up something or step outside our comfort zone.

God has something better in store for us. are we ready?
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Rev Poh said something during sermon today that struck me.
He said "Doubts in God's faith cannot be solved my intellectual thinking but only by faith in God." and that "some questions cannot be answered here on earth"
If you know me, you might know that i always have a lot of random questions about God and the bible. like... "why do we fear God? what does that mean?" and "why do demons worship God?" and stuff. Sometimes these questions would really bother me and i'd really go around asking everybody but what about God? i did try asking Him through prayer and hm... i dont know. Sometimes my questions go unanswered, maybe i just have to wait or maybe this is something that He doesnt want me to know. God will always be a holy mystery. There's just noo wayyy be can know everything about Him. It'll be far too much for us to comprehend.
No matter what, im rest assured that God will reveal to me what He wants me to know at Him own perfect timing. (:
I also learnt during sermon to secure my identity in God. I have to always remember who i am in the eyes of the Lord and see myself the same way. I am His child, His partner and His precious lamb. (: This will soo get me through my emo times.

fishy

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