1 Kings 19:1-15 (New Living Translation)

Elijah Flees to Sinai

1 When Ahab got home, he told Jezebel everything Elijah had done, including the way he had killed all the prophets of Baal. 2 So Jezebel sent this message to Elijah: “May the gods strike me and even kill me if by this time tomorrow I have not killed you just as you killed them.”
3 Elijah was afraid and fled for his life. He went to Beersheba, a town in Judah, and he left his servant there. 4 Then he went on alone into the wilderness, traveling all day. He sat down under a solitary broom tree and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life, for I am no better than my ancestors who have already died.”
5 Then he lay down and slept under the broom tree. But as he was sleeping, an angel touched him and told him, “Get up and eat!” 6 He looked around and there beside his head was some bread baked on hot stones and a jar of water! So he ate and drank and lay down again.
7 Then the angel of the Lord came again and touched him and said, “Get up and eat some more, or the journey ahead will be too much for you.”
8 So he got up and ate and drank, and the food gave him enough strength to travel forty days and forty nights to Mount Sinai,[a] the mountain of God. 9 There he came to a cave, where he spent the night.
The Lord Speaks to Elijah But the Lord said to him, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”
10 Elijah replied, “I have zealously served the Lord God Almighty. But the people of Israel have broken their covenant with you, torn down your altars, and killed every one of your prophets. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me, too.”
11 “Go out and stand before me on the mountain,” the Lord told him. And as Elijah stood there, the Lord passed by, and a mighty windstorm hit the mountain. It was such a terrible blast that the rocks were torn loose, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. 12 And after the earthquake there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire there was the sound of a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his cloak and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave.
And a voice said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”
14 He replied again, “I have zealously served the Lord God Almighty. But the people of Israel have broken their covenant with you, torn down your altars, and killed every one of your prophets. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me, too.”
15 Then the Lord told him, “Go back the same way you came, and travel to the wilderness of Damascus. When you arrive there, anoint Hazael to be king of Aram.

(okay that seemed a bit hard to read but anywaysss) Many times, like Elijah, we feel so discouraged after we put in so much effort in serving God and everything just fails that we just wanna give up (v10,14) . Things weren't going his way and his pride caused him to think that he shouldnt have to endure this. But God took care of him (fed him v8, sheltered him v9,taught himv11-13) then sent him back to finish the work. God's gentle whisper shows that sometimes God works in amaazing ways and sometimes in quiet ways. It's like a relationship sometimes your friends can show how much they love in the most expressive way like buying you wanted all your life or something but other times they can show their love even in the little things they do. Lets say...buying you a meal, or offering their comfort when you're down.

I cant remember since when but i've been secretly waiting for God to come through to be in a really... big BOOM BOOM BANG way. okay poor expression but you get what i mean right? like...shout to me and really stir up my heart and my emotions (i know i dont make much sense but i hope you get it). but today's devo really made me understood what a real relationship with God is. Everyday cant be a BOOM BOOM BANG day, that would make it lose its impact but God's still working in us every day. lets acknowledge that.

If you're at home reading this now, he has kept you safe today and maybe H1N1 free. (: he provided you with food and water and a big comfy bed. your whole perspective changes when you acknowledge God's provision even in simple things like that right? it's like we didnt even do anything to get all these, worse still, we break God's heart and He keeps blessing us with these. you just HAVE to love God. He's so awesome