"Jesus can we talk tonight? Like when we first met?"

kimmie thinks Jesus is awesome and she should stop writing in 3rd person.. so here goes:

its saturday as i'm writing this, and i've gotta leave the house in about 30 mins. I was lying on my parents' bed about to take a short nap, when i suddenly felt like posting here. So here I am.

haha Hiiii, I've been thinking alot lately and God has been speaking to me alot lately. Sometimes, you realise you just need to slow down and listen, even admist school and pw and/or chinese, i close my eyes and i feel very close to God, thinking about how the most wonderful thing on earth has already happened to me, that God has chosen me and I have chosen Him. I feel very contented and other or many things just seem so small. power of proper perspective, according to my friend Mr. Oswald Chambers.

I've started incorporating worship into my own quiet time, i lock the door, sit on the floor with my laptop and sing-along to youtube video/itunes and just close my eyes. Just God and me. Its incredible. I've only actually done it twice so far, its amazing because I can be so real before Him and He knows everything, so i just let it all out before Him. haha i cry and if you know me, i never cry..... okay i do but not at stupid things like korean dramas(ahem seeyue and amy). I mean I cant even begin to tell you how awesome qt can be, if only we allow God to quiet His love over us, give our utmost for Him. Sometimes, i think the day has to start with qt it's like having breakfast before starting your day, or gearing up before you go to war. Because i have no idea how to love others and live love,without knowing that I am loved first.

I've also came to understand the fact that every of us is a worshipper at heart, and worship is the time when I feel closest to God because we're all made to worship. But God is so much more that during that time of our worship, we feel close because we are communing with God and we're made to commune with God. Worship, like Jesus on a donkey is just the carrier of someone far greater.


Learning to have my heart so fixed and focused on Jesus, I've come to realise that is sometimes the only thing we have to do when we're serving. It's only when we have hearts so God-focused, are we able to carry out His will no matter what we maybe facing. Doesnt the fact that doing God's work, mean we're supposed to be so focused and dependent on Him such that we always completely belong to the Victor, and that it's always His Victory, since if you read to the end of the book you'll understand that He has already won. And that's the power of the proper perspective, no other power will be able to waver your faith and trust.

I've been thinking alot about next year as well, with alot to do. And to be honest, I'm not scared. It's no longer as daunting as when i first came to understand my responsibilites. Maybe because i know that I dont need anything but Him. Or that fact that I'm not living up to any expectations but only living His will. Perhaps it is actually trust that God has so graciously exchanged for my fears and insecurities. But I really think it's hope. Hope in God, which comes from above, blocks out every fear and is always there. God says hope never fails and it's true.

He takes my hand, and my heart and my world. So this is how trust actually feels like. And I know that in this season of my life, God wants me single and serving. And I'm learning to believe that there's really a time for everything. Now's the time to refrain and in God's perfect timing, God will build and it will grow it into something beautiful. So friends and friends of friends, spend your youth and singleness thirsting and hungering for God, who is so real only if you allow Him to speak into your life. Delight in Him, and He will exchange the emo-ness we so often and commonly feel in the mundaneness of our everyday life with the joy that He has promised. That comes from above, that satisfies, and that is what counts fifty years from now.


"Take me, have your way, though I dont feel You, i will believe"

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