dear my fav 2,

today i had a bad bad bad day:( i got scolded x3.
first, during history lecture mr ngeoi scolded everyone for not putting in effort for terms. not doing enough. i actually did put in effort for terms, but not my 100% so i deserved that scolding. he made alot of sense. what have i been doing??? i do my tutorials, read my notes, study for all my tests but his lecture just made me feel like i havent done enough. i was quite freaked out cuz he was so fierce, he exploded:( so i was quite shaken alr
second, mr kor saw lynn scolded me cuz he said i was being rude to him when i acidentally snatched my mc from him. i got such a shock i started crying in front of him and he exploded too.. i must have embarrased him because evee and jomama were there too. he kept asking me "why were you so rude! why are you crying! why! why! why! i dont understand why! WHYYY!" and i just cried even more like it just came out, i couldnt control it:( plus he's so fierce. like i cant say "cuz im scared of you:(". so he was really upset with me and i just couldnt stop crying i didnt know what to do:( i feel like crying even noww
third, history tutorial with mr tay & i didnt bring my essay:( i really did it i spent a long time my day just couldnt get any worser. he didnt scold me but my class really dissapointed him so he scolded everyone
i feel so emo nemo. i was so upset i think theres something really wrong with me even tho i think i didnt do anything wrong intially im not so sure now

But you know what....?
1 impt lesson i have always rmbed was that when i feel emo, dont fight emotions with emotions. fight emotions with the truth. because truth>emotions.
emotions sometime make you feel like you dont love God and that you just want to wallow in your emoness or like listen to a sad song but i happened to read ecclesiastes

ecc 7:14 "when times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as th other"

that is the truth. and altho i may feel like circumstances make me feel like i dont love God, i do.

i started crying to God, like telling him how hard it was for me. and i really believe like how it says when you dont know how to pray, the spirit intercedes for you. and i told God how i really loved him, admist all. i really do.

ecc 3:14 " I know that everything God does will endure forever' nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it"

i went for prayer meeting in that unstable state of mind. and i was really upset because i havent been right with God whole week. I thank God for sining(classmate), i texted her and she said God doesnt shortchange His people, and that i'll always have access to His wisdom. And you know i really thank God for sining, cuz she's someone i can share my faith so comfortably with. We think quite alike and i know that God really placed me and her in my life because we have gone through so many of the same experiences/ struggles in faith and she actually understands. God has such an awesome plan, i'm really very excited for the next year and the many many years to come where we can grow together. i really really love her. so i believe God really provides:)

Sorry if i was ranting

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